Full Moons

I knew it must have been coming because of my behaviour but I didn't realise it was right now. It's why I'm speeding and not eating and being hyper and just strange. Manic. When I'm like this I am me, but a weird slightly disconnected me. Impulsive and not always in a good way. I find it hard to express what I'm thinking and feeling as well and tend to do it physically instead of with words which is strange because usually I am best "talking it out".

But as I drove home tonight in the misty greyness and over rolling green hills (I had to pick up the Elfling from 150km away and drive home) I was listening to one of my favourite CDs (Triple J's Hottest 100 2007) and then just as I was pulling into Moggill before home came this song... and I wanted to cry because this is exactly how I feel about my husband.

Lyrics below

"Chasing Cars"

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?